::my journey with Loving God::: Thursday, April 26, 2012

BOY AND GIRL~

[ LONG BUT WORTH READING]

[ G i r l ] : *In tears* Hey, we’re best friends right?

[ B o y ] : Of course we are, why are you crying? *wipes tears off girl’s face* Don’t cry beautiful. Tell me, what’s wrong?

[ G i r l ] : Well, it’s my boyfriend. I found out that he’s cheating on me with another girl and i just can’t stop crying about this. I don’t know what to do. I really love him, and i don’t want to lose him. Please, you’re good friends with my boyfriend, do something bout this. Convince him that i am the girl for him, please do everything you can to make him realise that I’m all he needs.

[ B o y ] : *walks away from girl*

[ G i r l ] : *chased after boy* *in tears* If you were my best friend, you wouldn’t walk away on me like that.

[ B o y ] : I walked away from you because i didn’t want to help you with your problems. Look, I’ve been best friends with you for so long. And somewhere between our laughs, our fights, i fell in love with you. But i didn’t want to tell you bout my feelings cause you were still with him. Your ‘boyfriend’, he hurt you, he played with heart, and i don’t know why you’re still with him. Do you enjoy being hurt? If i helped you with your situation and get your relationship on the right track, it’ll just kill me. It hurts me everyday seeing you with your ‘boyfriend’. It hurts me even more seeing you in his arms. But it kills me knowing that you stick around with him when it’s obvious that he doesn’t love you. I can love you more than this, i really can. If you were mine, I’d show you what true love is. I’d make you feel like a princess, I’d give you all my love, I’d never cheat on you. There’s just an endless amount of things that i would do for you. I’ve been keeping my true feelings i have for you for like forever. And I’ve kept it bottled up and it kills me to have not told you all this earlier, but now that I’ve told you everything, it feels good. But I’m really scared at the same time cause i don’t know how you’ll react to this and this might actually ruin our friendship and i just can’t bear to lose you.

[ G i r l ] : *Breaks down crying* You have no idea how long I’ve wait for you to tell me you love me. The only reason why i stuck around with my ‘boyfriend’ was because i wanna find someone to love me. And somewhere between our laughs, and fights, i too fell in love with you. But i was so scared to tell you how i felt for you because i was afraid that you won’t feel the same for me, and it’ll ruin our great friendship. I waited so long for you to make your move and tell me you love me but i gave up and went to find someone else. And now that you finally told me you love me, it couldn’t be any better than this.

a worry list

Years ago, in an article in seminary magazine, Paul Borden gave some helpful suggestion for worries:

1.start a worry list- write down what you're worried about.

2. Turn your worry list into a prayer list- Ask the Lord to work in those situations you're concerned about. Pray specifically for your needs and depend on Him.

3. Turn your prayer list into an action list. If you have any insight that there's something you can do about your cares, do it. As we turn our worries into prayer and action, Borden says, " Paralysing anxienty can be replaced by concern for the responsibilities of life."

WHAT YOU HAVE MADE A MATTER OF PRAYER SHOULD CEASE TO BE A MATTER OF CARE.

THE LIVE I WANT TO BE......THIS IS MY LIFESTYLE.....

I want that Humility, I want to be humble, Lord I humble myself before you. I believe in a breakthrough this year. I don't want to waste anymore time on pride and let satan rob me from the wonderful blessings God has in store for me. I want to walk humbly. I'm created to serve you and the body of Christ, to worship you, to build relationships, putting others before me, loving one another, lift each other up. I'm hungry for more of you Jesus, draw me close to you. I understand it is a life long process. I understand humility is one of the highest graces and the hardest to attain. I understand it's not an easy walk, but I know I serve a mighty God and believe with all f my heart that You are with me and delight in such pursuit. Come Holy Spirit and teach me humility.

As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life -- delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay -- I hold this question as a guiding light: "What do I really need right now to be happy?" What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way. No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change. To change one's life: 1. Start immediately. 2. Do it flamboyantly. 3. No exceptions. Reverence for Life affords me my fundamental principle of morality, namely, that good consists in maintaining, assisting, and enhancing life and that to destroy, harm, or to hinder life is evil. Affirmation of the world -- that is affirmation of the will to live, which appears in phenomenal forms all around me -- is only possible for me in that I give myself out for other life. I think that taking life seriously means something such as this: that whatever man does on this planet has to be done in the lived truth of the terror of creation, of the grotesque, of the rumble of panic underneath everything. Otherwise it is false. Whatever is achieved must be achieved with the full exercise of passion, of vision, of pain, of fear, and of sorrow. How do we know ... that our part of the meaning of the universe might not be a rhythm in sorrow? Even after all this time, The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with A love like that. It lights the whole sky. There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living.